And who doesn't? After several years trying and nothing, I started to feel like Is never going to happen. I cry over this every night, I can't understand why this is happening to us. We are good people. After trying everything we could like, buying vitamins and pills that promise you a miracle, buying books, trying different positions, different diets, praying, praying and praying... nothing... If you have been in this situation then you know how it feels, if you haven't then please don't tell me that its going to happen when you least expect, because I just have to say, that is not going to make me feel any better. I hate when someone says that to me. We tried to get the insurance to approve us to a different clinic, but it seems they have something against us.
The husband and I were having a lot of fights because all the stress this was causing here at home. Our sex life was so planned that it wasn't even fun to have sex anymore. It kind of felt like it was a "must do" instead of a "may do". Even though having a child is the thing I want the most in life, I didn't want to destroy my marriage. So I decided that the best thing to do was to take a break. Go back to our normal lives, no more charting, no more pregnancy tests, no more ovulation kits, no more vitamins, no more timing sex. I think things went back to normal right after that; but inside of me I felt my heart was breaking in two.
I started taking care of my self, using progesterone to control my hormones because they were out of control, started to spend more time studying. Then when we " least expected "....
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